misconception on love

Why must people act so stupid for the sake of love?, how come when love comes into the picture people suddenly have no common sense. I hate how everyone has this misconception about love and how perfect it is when in reality everyone knows that there's no such thing as perfect. As love has a good side it also has it's bad sides, and nothing is ever easy it take hard work, and dedication. I understand why people might for in love with the idea of being in love for what they heard is such an amazing feeling, but there's way more to it which you have to be ready for, because love is an emotional rollercoaster. Usually people are so quick to rush to find someone to fall in love with that there judgement isn't always the best, and usually settle for the first thing that comes there way, because they want to experience love, but if it isn't the right person things won't go as plan. Just like everything in life things take time, and understanding to be great. I hate how people love the idea, but never want to work for it. I hate how people see me and my relationship, and say it's perfect well your wrong things just didn't come together for me, i worked hard to get where i'm at. It took so many tears, so much, pain the ups and downs for things to be as good for me as they are now, nothing is ever given. Love shouldn't be played with or taken for granted, which it seem's as if love is losing all meaning. Why must people use the word so losely how can you love one person one day, but the next say you have someone new and all of a sudden your saying you love them, it all just seems to funny to me. People today seems so desperate and they seem to be giving any one the time of day, can't you see how sad it is when right off the back your saying you love some one and letting them take advantage of you, because all they see you as is just a piece of ass. Or how many woman just throw themselves at men, or get so clingy just because he pays you just the slightest of attention. Your suppose to give your heart to someone who deserves it, not just because a guy wants to fuck you. Don't confuse sex for love, because if thats all he seeing, thats all it is. And what's sad to me is that many girls know this, and read to far into it, sex is just sex to most so what might be an act of passion for you may not be the same for someone else. When someone loves you they will make it known, and do everything in there power to make you happy. There's girls i know that all they ever were was ass to a guy, and knew that's all they were, but continue to persue him when he made his intensions very clear, and i sit here laughing thinking to myself your just a fool to allow him to get over on you, where your saying you love him, and he's out doing him like you seize to exist. He pays no mind to you, and it's sad because i know a girl who she's like deeply in love with this kid, and she says he feels the same but he never takes her out, and she's always up his ass, and he does nothing for her except lay the pipe on her, and she continues to claim him as her man and she makes up all the excuses why they have no pictures together. They only time they spend together is late at night when he picks up the phone to call her and say come over he pipes and sends her on her way. He doesn't even treat her to at least mcdonalds when she's hungry. But it's sad how she tries to convince herself he loves her. I hate to see how girls use sex to keep a man, if he wants to leave, he will always leave and nothing can change that. Someone should love you for what you have, and not because you open your legs. Love and sex are to different things so don't confuse sex for love, sex should be something you want to do, and not because you feel you have to in order to keep someone, where's the dignity, where's the self respect. Now bitches want to wonder how come there a single mother on welfare with a dead beat for a father, because your putting so much into just a booty call. But what urks me the most is that people got the nerve to compare what they have with what i have, and in all honesty your far from it. For what i have is in actual love, and is everything to not only me but him. So girls respect your self and stop being just pussy, because that ain't classy

Girl interrupted

Lately my mind seems to be running in so many directions, and i just can't seem to put a stop to it. My mind is clutter with thoughts that i just can't make out, and the more i try to make sense the more i feel as if i'm going insane. Why am i attacking myself for what was brought upon me. I never agreed to take on such responsibilties that i was yet not ready for, i wasn't ready to take on caring for another life. I could barely keep my life together so how did it all make sense that i would care for two more. No cared to hear me out, and when i spoke, i was considered selfish, and ignorant, but how do i take on something i have no knowledge of, where if something goes wrong it's my fault. I didn't want to take on such challenge. How come noone ever thought how would i feel, what toll this might take on me. Now i'm stuck feeling like i can't breathe, where every decision i make is being veiwed closely under a microscope. I feel as if i'm being shred to pieces for trying my best, where my best is never good enough. Everyone tells me you have to be strong, you have to keep cool. Fuck being calm fuck being cool or strong or whatever it is that you want me to be, because the truth is i just can't. How can i when i'm being attacked for my efforts left and right, and screaming is just a waste, because they'll just drown that out as if i seize to exist. I want an end to this on going nightmare when will enough be enough. Where's the understanding, where's the apprecitaion for all that i've done. Just thrown into the sharks to save you, and i don't even get a thank you. But i carry on with a smile, and act as all is fine just because i'm told to it's not. have you ever thought that i feel abandoned, and i know it's wrong of me to say because your in so much pain. But i can't continue to act as if all is fine, when in all reality i'm not. I'm panicking and i don't know what to do, i feel as if my best is just not enough. And everything that could go bad does go bad,and things continue to turn for the worst. I need to break free, but i'm stuck here till you come back, and it's hurts me so much, because as i await for your arrival, my thoughts are slowly eating me alive. Why does this have to happen to me, i just feel torn and hurt and stuck in pain and i just can't find an end to it. I wish i could wake up from it all, but i can't because unlike a dream this is real, and it's what i call my life.

Is Octomom selfish?

This shit is crazy

Must have

ok so due to the fact of all my love for the internet, i thought it would be a good idea to put together a list of things i thought a girl should have. Because god knows we always have an urge to buy new things it's in our blood. Although pink isn't one of my favorite colors i can't help but adore hello kitty. So i found a couple of items i can't seem to resist. For starters like this hello kitty ice pack, it's small but yet cute & even though we might get bruised or sore & need an ice pack it's cute to help your boo in style.


Now i was actually looking for a cupacke sippee cup with a straw but instead i got this hellokitty cupcake cup, which is still so adorable.


If you know me, you know that i love love music, and for awhile i've been looking for some speakers for my ipod. But every speaker i came across with were just bulky, until i came across the hello kitty speakers, where she sits on top as a Dj.



I also love coffee, and hate those old fashion coffee makers that my grandma uses, if your spanish you know what i'm talking about those bulky metal tin cans lol, so i found these coffee makers that i fell in love with. I love the pink one, because i think it's cuter, but since i'm not crazy with pink i would probably purchase the black one.




And last but least of all things hello kitty which i think is a must have is the mac hello kitty makeup collection, which comes in such cute fun colors, and it's in black rather than the usual white & pink. Which i'm dying to have, it's a must have.




On to other things that i found, sticking to the whole makeup thing a girls neccessity is her makeup along with a make up bag, and what better way to mix one of my favorite things with my favorite designer Besty Johnson. Now i'm not a fan of shinning things but i can't help but love this makeup bag in gold.

which i also think it can be used as a purse and would look good with a banging outfit.



Another item from Besty johnson that i fell in love with instantly on seeing it is the leopard coat that Hanna beth is wearing, which you can mix it into a day time look and also a night time look, plus i think every girl should have something leopard in her closet.


Accessories to me is always a must have and it always brings an outfit together. Bangles are always good to have and they go with everything but these bangles stuck out, because of the sayings which are too cute. now i've been hearing shit about these bangles how they are a knock off from a designer who uses real mammoth tusk which i do not agree with. I actually perfer the plastics, because it's not hurting any animals, i do not agree with animal cruelty. Besides you can buy bangles for a dollar and take a sharpie write a saying than coat it with clear nail polish, and there is something of your own.



I'm all up for decorating and lifting up the mood of an enviroment with tiny details, and which better way than stuff animals and cute figurines. Now i love these teddy bears which there not the typical cute bears, in fact there the complete opposite, which you can find at hot topic for only 20 bucks.



also i've been into this fafi madness where it's spreading rapidly which these figurines are so cute.



and who says you can't take cuteness with you, girls have to be fashionably cute where ever they go so why not your wallet. I love domo so these wallets are awesome.

urinals for women

Strange right?, well thats what i thought to. I was watching Chelsea Lately when they discussed that a line of woman urinals were made called " Go girl" for woman on the go who want to pee standing up. Personally i find that very weird?, why would we want pee standing up, i can only imagine how uncomfortable it would be to pee in one of those things. Unlike men we cannot aim for the target so we probably will end up with piss all over our legs. I know that many of times when i was stuck outside, and had to go i would say i wish i can go anywhere like the guys did, but never said i wish i could pee standing up. Plus it isn't as if we can go where ever we want with these urinals, we still have to go find a place to piss in a urinal, and it's just not me. So if pee standing up is your thing than this is for you, so enjoy.

Kanye's insane rampage

Ok so i know i've been kind of late with this whole Kanye West madness, but what in the hell possessed him to do this whole mullet thing, does he actually thinks this looks good?. Who ever is his stylist must seriously be fired, and i'm most definitely awaiting on the response of his family who are so stuck on him, and suck him really hard, who follow his every move. Now don't get me wrong his music and producing are pretty good, i can't argue with that fact. But is it me or is it that his music and his producing is all he has, because when it comes to be smart that's one thing that Mr. Kanye West does not have. Recently he was interviewed, and was caught saying " I am so secure with myself, that i can talk to gays. Before i was scared of gays, because they were so violent, and now i can go to paris and blantly know who's gay". Now doesn't that sound kind of ignorant, because it sure does sound like it to me. Lately Kanye has been bragging about how he is so secure about being around gays, what is he trying to prove?, is he trying to prove that he is not gay?. Anyone who starts a conversation with I am so secure with who i am is clearly gay, and your not fooling anyone Kanye with that mullet it just screams gay. But what is so funny is how he explains the reason that he was homophobic before was for the simple fact that the gays were violent, since gays are known to be violent. And what is he trying to say when he says he goes to paris and can pick out a gay, as if paris is the only place to find gays. I just think Kanye should keep his mouth shut, and just stick to what he know's. Who knew that such a person who makes good music, can say such dum things.

Drake

Everyone knows i'm not to crazy for rap music, but this is like one of my favorites right now. I love him


but i'm so fucking hooked on his shit. plus i loved him in degrassi, who knew lol.

Kid-cudi

So if you haven't heard Kid-cudi is making it big on the music scene, and all the props to him and his success. But what bothers me i how before his name was thrown out there, and no one knew who he was people kind of looked down upon him and wasn't quite into his music. I can actually say that there were a handful of people that i know that actually acknowledged his music before the hype. Of coarse it's expected for his audience to grow, but i respect it more if it's for the love of his music rather than, because it's the current trend. I can't say that i know much about his music or even call myself a fan, but i'm quite familiar with who he is due to a couple of my friends who are die hard music fans. I just hate the fact how everything now is a simple trend, rather than the love of the music. I would respect it more if you it came from the pure enjoyment rather than just because thats what everyone else is listening to. Hey i aint mad at you Kid-cudi keep doing your thing.

Coraline inspired

If you haven't already watched Coraline the movie, i suggest that you do so, and if you loved the movie like i did than you would love this Nike dunks that were inspired by the movie. I love the details to these sneakers especially the glow in the dark soles, there pretty awesome, and i'm looking forward to me copping a pair.

Chris brown Vs. Rhianna drama

Of coarse like everyone else i heard the news about how Chris brown abusing Rihanna, now what i find to be so amusing is how everyone and there mother seems to be shocked and appauled by his action. Why is this case so unusual?, everyone acts as if they never heard about physical abuse in a relationship, is it because there are famous?. The media seems to be having a field day with this. it goes from Chris brown hitting her, to biting her, to him founding out that Rihanna has herpes and that was the reason why he took his anger at her. What ever the case may be everyone is shocked and hurt that it was Chris Brown, i don't understand why everyone puts him so high up on a pedastale as if he was GOD, well he isn't he' human like everyone else who makes mistakes, which he happens to sing, dance and act and make lots of money. I hate the fact that everyone feels just because someone is famous they can do no wrong, well the truth is they can, and instead of everyone feeling sympathetic for Chris Brown you should actually feel sympathy for Rihanna. I can only imagine the pain that she must be going through knowing the person she loves is capable of doing so much harm to her, and the fact that she has no privacy and everyone is watching her under a microscope reminding her constantly of what she went through. This situation is between the two of them, shit happens now let it go, and move on. How does it feel to know the person you idolize isn't the person you thought he was?. People are so stuck on this fairy tale image of Chris brown when in reality you don't know him from a whole in the wall, well except for what you see on Tv, its kind of sad how people worship the ground that theses celebrities walk on SMH.

unbeweavable

who says a weave isn't that great. This lady thinks different

Banned commercials

So i was looking through youtube and came upon these commercials that were banned. Hilarious so enjoy.












sorry i got kind of carried away, but they were so funny lol

My little secret

For those who know me, know that when it comes to style thats something i don't have at all. You can say i'm color coordinated retarded. I don't know what looks good together, or what might be fashionable, and i don't follow trends. When i get dressed it's never planned, i just throw on the first thing that catches my eye that day. So when i went shopping in old navy with the novio, i found it kind of shocking when a couple of ladies complimented on how they liked my outfit, and how they love how i pulled off that care free throw on what ever they find kind of look, but what was so funny is that it wasn't intended to look a certain way, i actually do dress that way. What i find so funny is how they we're dying to know how i pulled off the look without looking bummy. So since i've been asked so many times what i do, i just decided to share. For one if your as lazy as me, and if you know me i'm one person who dislikes to wash her hair alot, and barely combs her hair. I usually have unruly curls that are always knotted, so you will usely find me wearing a hat. which i own in every style, in every color, which hats are good to wear if your having a bad hair in which i usually am. I love funky hats, in many colors to match the many outfits you might have. I love buying my hats at H & M, you can always count on them to have such cute hats, and what's awesome about the store is that you can buy mens hats that can suite woman also.

What's also cool about this store is that the prices of hats range from any where from $3.00 to $20.00, so you don't have to worry about burning a hole into your pocket.

Before i put the hat on i like to put on a creme that conditions your hair, i usually go with anything coconut scented, because when wearing a hat your head tends to sweat so you don't want your hair smelly musty and your hat smelling bad either so, it'll keep your hair smelling good through out the day.

When i don't feel like going through the whole routine of putting on my makeup, and i actually want to go for a more natural look, i usually leave my face bare and just apply some mac concealer to the little flaws on my face such as pimples i usually wear a color close to my skin, and if you have dark circles as i do i cover them up with mac concealer in a shade a little lighter than my skin tone, which it covers up the dark circles and lightens up my face drawing attention to my eyes which i think are my one of my best features.

This concealer goes for about $15.00 and you don't have to cake so much on, so if use correctly it can last.

For my finishing touch which i usually use chapstick which has to be my number one addiction. now my problem with chapstick is that it leaves that nasty white residue around the corners of your lips. Which i found Nivea to be perfect which not only conditions my lips, but also puts some shine as if you applied lip gloss, and it doesn't leave any white residue. What's even better that they come in all different colors and flavors, and some even have a lil tint which i perfer a kiss of cherry flavor.

You can even subsitute this chapstick for lipstick and it isn't pricely at all it will cost you about $2.00 which you can find in any drug store.

And thats all there is to it. hope i was kind of helpful in a way.

M.I.A. Prego's. where was I?

So as it seems M.I.A. has been prego's and i didn't know, can some one tell me where the fuck was I?. Now she looks cute prego's but thats the least i can't say about her wardrobe decision. No me gusta. Now who's the babys daddy?

A never ending Nightmare

No matter what I do, I can't seem to wake from this nightmare that I am in. It's like im stuck in some kind of horror movie, something like Nightmare on Elm Street to be exact. Where your stuck in this nightmare and you think you woke up and all is fine, but just to find out your still stuck in the nightmare that you thought you left. Well that's how I fucking feel, and im stuck with this knot in my stomach, and my heart feels like it has dropped to my ass. My heart breaks to see my little brother miserable in pain. In and out of the hospital with him is something I can not stomach, I can not see him in this condition. It hurts so much to see him like this, that I can not stop the tears from falling. If having a kid is like this than I don't think I can deal, I can hardly face this, I can only imagine seeing one of my own like this. I can imagine what a parent must go through, and I feel like im losing my mind. When will this all be over?. I need a vacation :(

PMS

I wish I could fucking rip my utereous out and shred it to pieces, because I can't stand to bare this crucial aching pain, this stabbing pain in my stomach that I wish would go away, but like the demon it fucking is it chooses to stay. Why must I be punished, what have I done to deserve this. I blame it all on eve, why did she have to be such a dum bitch and eat the forbidden fruit, now im paying for her sins. What the fuck is this if one bitch fucks up we all have to pay, when did this become a team effort, I didn't sign up for this shit. I wish I was drugged up beyond belief so I don't have to feel this pain. ughhh HELP!!!

Scared Cold

It's been two months since my mom fell very ill, and landed in the hospital leaving me to take on the responsibility of caring for the household including my two little brothers. I do of coarse have my step dad with me, but that's like not even having anybody at all. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss my mom or that im not scared shitless or that im not stressed out of my mind beyond belief, because truth be told I am and none of this is easy. I didn't know so much could go wrong, and that there was so much to handle. I'm use to everything handed to me on a silver platter, and now I'm the one taking charge and calling the shots and as it is all new for me it is all very scary. It hurts to hear that my moms condition is very severe, and the chances of her dying compare to living is much greater. I can't see a world with out her, and although we fuss and fight I love her and need her here by myside to guide me. It takes so much strength for me to keep my composure and continue on, and now I appreciate and understand how strong of a person my mom is to handle this all and I miss her very much. Just thinking of it makes me cry, having to pay the bills and worry about the kids and taking care of them which both of them are very sick beyond belief and it scares me to see them that way, I didn't know taking care of another life besides your own could be so difficult and frustrating, but it is. I'm in charge of cleaning, cooking and all that a mother does to keep her house in order and let me say it isn't easy. I feel like running away, because this all too much for me to handle, and I try not to break down and cry but even that is so hard to do. I thank god that I have my boyfriend to help me through the way, and he has been so helpful to me that I am forever greatful. But I fear for what's to come what happens if this is permanant, and my mom does not return how will I deal. I'm scared for my life, and here I am at 4:57 in the morning watching my little brother sick out his mind vomiting in front of me, and me making him soup and trying to do the best I can to make him feel better. It hurts so bad to see him cry saying he misses mom and that he wish she was here, because she knows how to make him feel better. I've never seen him this sick, and hopefully it'll get better. I pray that all this will get better, and I pray that my mom will also get better and return. My faith in god right now is so strong that im putting everything in his hands, because honestly I don't know what to do anymore. I just miss my mom, and want her back so badly, I want things to be how they were before, and I wish nothing but to wake up from this nightmare that I've been living in for these couple of months :(

The Bad Girls Club. says who?

After hearing everybody talk so much about this show the Bad Girls Club, and me of coarse getting sick of hearing about it, I decided to check it out. Feeding into the hype I was actually looking forward to watching it, and much to my surprise I was very disappointed in seeing how these so call " Bad Girls" were not even bad at all, but just dum. Nothing about them screamed " Bad" and for the whole epoisode they just acted really dum, after making a complete ass of themselves in vegas posing as show girls and fucking up in front of everyone, because they cannot dance at all. And the highlight of the show is with these two dum blondes who wanted to get married which if you ask me was all a joke, but ended up getting kicked out of a chapel cuz the lady minister was a physcotic non lesbian lover. But there having a whole marathon on this shit so we'll see. If you ask me I seen way worse bitches than these.

The birthday surprise

So my boyfriends birthday is coming up and its finally my turn to surprise him with something awesome after all that he did for me on my birthday. And let me say it was awesome the best birthday I ever had, because he chose to go all out. So I think its only fair that I return the love and do the same, but I don't even know where to start seeing he deserves the world, and believe me if I could give him the world I would serve it to him on a silver plater. My plan at first was to learn to cook something so amazing but since I already learn how to cook and he has eaten my food not much of a surprise is there. But im qood at baking and I can bake my ass off, but I don't just want to bake just any cake I want to bake him a cake he will never forget. Something like a layer cake with all the pretty decorations but I don't know how to do any of that. So if anyone has any advice or suggestions or anything useful just let me know :)

Best weekend

Ok so for the past month and a half I've been stuck within my home without seeing the day of light well for the exception of going food shopping for the house of coarse. Since my mom fell ill I had to take over the task of being a mom which includes cooking, cleaning, and doing other motherly stuff that comes with having a family. I thought it would be easy, seeing how I always said how I could do it with no problem and how I didn't understand what was all the fuss was about when my mom complained how tiring and hard it was to be her. And let me tell you I was so wrong, and I can't tell you how much I miss my mom. Its not easy balancing out a whole schedule for the day such as get kids ready for school, take them school, feed them, clean them, help them do homework, while cooking, cleaning and food shopping on the other hand. I have no time for myself to relax, because where I clean on one spot the other is a mess. So now I truly have a much more appreciation for my mom. And I know when she returns from the hospital I know that this whole routine will continue, because my mom is now paralyzed in one arm and can hardly walk and I don't think I would mind continuing as long as she was back home.

But friday my aunt decided that I need some time to myself, so she took the kids for the weekend and for the first time in awhile I had an open weekend which turned out to be complete awesomeness :)

Friday me and the hubby went out to the movies to see Coraline, and I have to say that movie was so cute I loved it, although the hubby was kind of snoozing, where we ended the night cuddling in bed watching tv till we fell asleep.

Saturday my friend Danny came to see me from Long island, and we went to see The Pink panther 2 funny as movie and than we went to eat dinner at red lobster, which the food was amazingly good and I ended the night falling asleep in the arms of the hubby.

Sunday I cleaned up before my stepdad returned from D.R. but it was fun, because me and the hubby bugged out, than before the kids came we watched three movies, Nick & Norahs infinate playlist, which I loved, Bride wars which was Ehh ok, and The uninvited which wasn't scary as expected but surprising. Than I ended the night going to bed with the kids and the hubby.

So I have to say that was the best weekend I have ever had in awhile. And it didn't hurt that my outfits were cute too :)

My Bestfriend

Not just my boyfriend, & not only my everything, but also my bestfriend, because a love like ours is so unconditional we hold no boundries. I love you baby with all my heart. I wouldn't have it any other way :)

No such thing as friends

I've never been a fan of having friends ever since I was little I kept to myself. It wasn't because I couldn't make any friends, I just never really like people in general. I especially didn't click well with other girls for the simple fact that they were all just "BITCHES ", there they were thinking each and everyone single one of them were the shit unfucking touchable as if they we're god or something like it. Which I wanted no part of, because along with bitch comes that diva attitude where they can say and do what they please, and I just wasn't down for all that. They all were like dolls kindness not included each and everyone of them never different, but all the same, they all dress the same act the same. Along with there bitchiness came slutiness,backstabbing, twofaced gossiping whores, and I was sure I wanted no part. I stuck close to my guy friends, because I knew they would never do me wrong, but as I grew my mom said I had to be more lady like and social so I tried to have friends especially girls and I can say that never worked out, im 21 with no friends that are girl they came they went and were surely not missed. And let me tell you I've never been in so much trouble than I have when I associatted myself with a broad. They have such big ass mouths that get them in so much fucking trouble it's unbelievable. There immature and so fucking rude on belief. They have no fucking self morals where they sweat and stalk a guy who can give two shits about them. They suck fuck and lick to get there way, and its like where the fuck is your self respect. I just choose to stay away from that I feel im to grown for the drama. And as for guy friends there are none, because these days are just as bad and everything relvolves around pussy. Go Figure. I simply don't have any patience for all this nonsense, so I choose to stick to myself, that way I'm never stressed, or bothered or disappointed from what others do. Some say I'm like an old lady, because I stick to my man and that's all I stick to. Well let me be an old lady because I'm happy with my baby, because I never have to go through the shit that bitches bring.

and for those who feel offended by this, I really don't give a fuck, because than it might apply to you.

Phobia's

So one thing I realized is that everytime I get into a conversation with some one way or another someone asks the question what is your biggest fear or what do you fear the most?. Even in those dum myspace surveys there's always a question based on fears. I know that its normal for everyone to fear something, but what I have noticed over the years of being asked about what it is I fear I realized that I not only fear a couple of things but a lot. And since I didn't know what were the names of most of my fears i decided to look them up which I found out there is even a phobia list filled from A to Z of the many phobia's there is and since I've been hooked into finding out how many phobia's I havem and trust me when I say I have a lot. Well here's a few of my fears.
Achluophobia- fear of darkness

Agoraphobia- fear of open spaces or of being in crowded places,fear of leaving your safe place.

Anthropophobia- fear of people or society.

Anuptaphobia- fear of staying single

Athazagoraphobia- fear of being forqotten, or iqnored or forqettinq

Automatonophobia- fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax, statues, anything that falsly represents a sentient being.

Autophobia- fear of being alone or of oneself

Bogyphobia- fear of bogeys or the bogeyman.

Claustrophobia- fear of confined spaces.

Clithrophobia- fear of being enclosed.

Demonophobia- fear of demons.

Enosiophobia- the fear of having committed an unpardonable sin or of criticism.

Gerascophobia- fear of growing old.

Glossophobia- fear of speaking in public or trying to speak.

Hadephobia- fear of hell.

and that's just to name a few, because the list goes on but I thought it would be to much. Now im stuck with thinking is there something wrong with me? or is it natural to fear so many things?. Well either way I can't deny that I have these fears and hopefully one day I can face them. But feel free to let me know what your fear is and why.